Retired??

Is that how you feel when retired? Sounds weired the way I started it, right? But this was the feeling which had enveloped me this morning, when I got up a little late than my usual time (7am) and realised that I don’t have any studies to do. Ah, got a clue what am I talking about…let me lift the veil…

For the past 8 months now, I was into this “study-mode”…preparing for MBA entrance tests (specifically CAT but ironically, it’s never your last exam but the first one you take). I’d got into this routine of getting up early and trying to go through some practice exercises…and all this at the cost of the real exercises. In all these months, I'd never been as irregular with my gym as I'd become. This was about the mornings (only weekdays). After getting back from the office, at night, I again used to try my luck grasping a couple of more theorems (this was an everyday story, all 7 days a week).

In this process, the whole charm of a weekend was lost. They were taxing for me. A major part of it went in the tuition classes and the other part, in the MOCK tests. All in all, I was a busy man in these past few months. And I suffered at many fronts. Being a social bee previously, I gradually had to cut on my parties and get-togethers. The reason being, the next day I wouldn’t have been able to concentrate with a hang-over. But seriously speaking, it was an attempt to manage my time better.

As I mentioned earlier, I hadn’t hit a gym for a long time. And now a slight paunch is what I sport these days. I’d never been in such a bad shape. One of the other areas which suffered was movies. Being a sort-of-movie-buff, I haven’t watched any latest flick of late. To be precise, it’s been over 2 months and 1 week.

And there are few other things also which got affected. But never mind, I kept ticking...thinking all of it is for a reason…a reason worthy enough to validate all these so-called sacrifices I've made.

Now, the last exam is over. It went over yesterday. And I presumed that it was going to be the last Sunday when I’d to slog. That’s right in a way coz from the next week onwards, I won't be spending a precious Sunday afternoon in writing some MOCK test. But there’s something or the other waiting to take a toll on you. And no sooner did I finish the test than I got a call from the office to show up urgently. All my plans for celebrations, which even before been made, got vanished into the thin air, or rather into the conditioned air of my office! So now I have to restate, modiying a little...that on a Sunday, it's more worthy to write MOCK tests of 2½ hours than to break your head in the office for 9 hours!

As of now, I seem to be done with all of this MBA business…atleast until the results are declared…and if I be lucky enough to get a call or two. So this morning was a very lazy one. I’d all the time in the world…I think in the next few days, I’ll be able to resume my old routine, as it was before these 8months. I will go to the gym in the mornings…and at nights, I’ll get to read anything of MY choice...on the weekends, I’ll hit it with my circle again. And of course, now no movie would be spared from my critique, right in the first week of its release.

But till the time it gets back into form, I feel lost..trying to convert my vacation into vocation...